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..humans are funny creatures..
..u might be asking why i am saying all this..

..i am hearing this particular song when i am blogging in the office..
..i wun say wat song it is here here..
..ppl that noe me well might be able to guess correctly..

..see..
..i am leading this rather normal life now..
..at least more normal then wat i use to have..
..i have someone whom at least will think of me in some things he do..
..though he can be a blockhead at times..
..i am really not ranting or complaining abt him here..


..but there are times when a particular song or scene that come along..
..i will tend to remb things or ppl in the past..
..be it good or bad..
..sometime i wish that i was not the one i am in the past..

..there are things i did in the past that is really foolish..
..there are stuffs that i give up without proper thinking..
..there are stuffs that i am too stubborn to change..
..i used to think "if i think is right, i can jus do it the way i wan"..

..maybe things will change..
..maybe ppl ard me wun be the same as now..
..maybe i can still manage to keep some from the past..
..maybe i wun learn this much as now..

..i dun wan to keep ranting abt "wat if i have done dat in the first place.."..
..i dun wan to ponder on the decisions i made a "million yrs ago"..
..i cant even remb why i made all that decisions..
..things might change..yes..
..but will i still be the me as now..
..maybe not..

..i might not be doing enuff for everyone..
..i might be still that princess i used to be in the past..
..i might be still not thinking str like i used too..
..but i believe..


..i grown out of wat i used to be..
..i am learning to love myself and ppl ard me..

..thanks to u..

..守护著等奇迹的你..
Tuesday, February 24, 2009 at 4:21 PM


..Sushi time..

..met Andra for lunch today..
..he was late for like 1/2 hr..
..humph..


..he drove me to the school to pass the documents before settling for lunch..
..drove ard kallang for awhile since we didnt noe where to eat..
..since we are nearby bugis..
..so bugis here we come!!..

..i was in a hurry since i have to go back to the office..
..thus we decided to eat something fast yet good..
..Sakae Sushi..
..my 'once' favourite!!..
..cause baby dun eat sushi so i didn't have much chance to eat them..

..the pictures will tell u how much i miss sushi..
..i am not ranting abt baby not accompanying me eat them..

..my first dish to start everything off..Chawanmushi!!..

..the first few food we took for the sushi table....the finished first chawanmushi.. ..all salmon sushi..my favourite!!.. ..my second chawanmushi.. ..ebi tempura!!..slurps.. ..our finished meal.. ..andra..he paid for the meal..so good!!.. ..we had our meal in a rush..
..didn't really talk much with him..
..maybe knowing each other too long dun need too much words u can utd each other le bahz..
..he say he is happy to see his "old" friend..
..he is saying i am old..

..i wan to recommend this sushi out of all the others..
..tada!!..

..guess wat's this??..

..this is salmon sashimi..
..with mango and cucumber..
..i love this sashimi..
..the taste is refreshing and unusual..
..sweet and crunchy..
..try this when u are at sakae sushi!!..

..strongly recommended by me!!..


..守护著等奇迹的你..
Thursday, February 19, 2009 at 6:32 PM


..have nutting to blog today though..
..no special thots since i never come across any special articles..
..but i am really bored..

..Proudly present!!..
..my favourite teabreak food with TeH-O..

..i dun have to tell u all wat's that right..
..i simply love to eat the sandwiches..

..i have been eating alot of food recently..
..every little little things will interest me..
..getting fatter i think..
..but life short..
..so enjoy..

..have dinner with aUgust and sis ytd..
..went to the fish-head steamboat that baby say will bring me eat once a yr..
..that's nonsense though..
..we at least ate this 3 times this month!!..
..enjoyed dinner alot..
..except for the teasings from august..

..the old fashioned way..

..all of them eating.. ..let's have more catch up sessions pls..
..i am like u
n-touched with the present world..


..守护著等奇迹的你..
Wednesday, February 18, 2009 at 7:48 PM


..i realised that everything just dun go your way..
..i can be happy for the whole day..
..yet something that is unpleasant to my ears will make me angry for the next few days..

..my temper aren't good..
..i am a short tempered and overly suspicious person..
..i can be very nice yet nasty at times..
..i can change for the sake of my loved ones and family..
..but it is still the me beneath everything..

..if i grumbles..
..you shld be happy..
..cause if i dun grumbles..
..it means i will remb it for the rest of my life..

..i am a girl..
..a very unique one..
..no one will be like me..
..nor i will be like anyone else in the world..

..if u think u utd a girl well..
..i am sorry to say u dun utdz me..
..if u dun utd a girl at all..
..u might stand a chance of understanding me..

..dun condemn me by looking at me..
..or talking to me..
..every girls need someone to utd them before they really opened their heart to u..
..dun compare your love btw the present and past..
..they are all different..
..if u cannot get over the past..
..dun start with the present..


..i am jus ranting..
..thots jus flooded my mind..
..nutting to do with my life currently..

..守护著等奇迹的你..
Tuesday, February 17, 2009 at 7:24 PM


..Valentine Day cruising..

..baby was late on coming over to fetch me from my hse..
..he need to work and said to be arriving at 10.30am..
..so i woke up like 8 plus to pack watever i need to bring to cruise..
..waited and waited to 2 pm in the afternoon..
..he was said to be busy..

..he got me a bouquet of blue roses for me..
..guess is all the whining i gave him on Vday eve..
..i loved blue roses!!..
..thanks baby..

..my blue roses..

..so starting from my hse..
..we rushed off to finish his work at Marina South..
..go back to his hse and i packed his luggages while he go bath..
..den rush to Habourfront to meet up with his friends..
..we are so lucky to be in time..
..we are like 5 min away from the boat departing..

..our luggages.. ..all set for the trip....on our way to Harbourfront.. ..i was told that we need to change two boats to the cruise..
..so i took the first boat to batam first..
..the boat was very crowded..
..i dunno even know whether everyone is gg to the cruise or batam..

..our first boat....upon reaching batam..
..everyone had to get off the boat!!..
..so i tot we are suppose to board another boat which is beside the pier..
..i was wrong!!!..

..i took this on Batam's pier..

..when everyone cleared away from the first boat..
..the person asked us to board the first boat again..
..only to transit us to the second boat..
..which is over at the other side of the boat..
..thus i didn't get the photos of the second boat..
..i dun even know how it look like!!..

..but the second boat was better and more fun than the first boat..
..i was allowed to walk ard the boat when it left the pier..
..and it was not as crowded as the first boat..
..best of all..
..i am able to climb up to the top deck for sea breeze and e sun..
..i love the refreshing feeling when the sea breeze brushes with my skin..

..us on the second boat..

..after 1 hr and 45 mins of boat trip..
..we finally reach our destination!!..

..the cruise i am staying..
..there are a lot of uncles and aunties on board..
..thus i didn't really have the chance to take any pictures..
..it is pushing and hurrying session to board on the cruise..

..after a long queue of checking in..
..we headed to our cabin first..
..i was so so so tired..
..i didn't manage to really sleep the previous night..
..to my very surprise..
..u dun feel the ship moving or swaying at all in the open sea..
..it feels like as though u are in a building itself..


..our cabin on the cruise.. ..me in the cabin..

..after leaving our luggages in the cabin..
..the four of us went walking ard the ship first before heading for dinner..
..i was so disappointed that the pool is under maintenance..
..bOo..
..no swimming for me though..

..pictures show some part of the cruise..

..e pool i saw.. ..pictures we took on board.. ..i love this pic we took.. ..sunset!!....areas on the cruise..

..i didn't get the pictures of the whole boat though..
..we managed to find the spa and massage parlour on board..
..but he was totally packed..
..thus we planned to go back later..
..i didn't get the pictures as i was busy looking thru the packages..

..we had dinner over at this Long Jie Restaurant..
..it is a buffet style mixed vegetables rice..
..the food tastes okiez..

..my dinner....after dinner..
..we spent our night walking ard the cruise..
..no starry starry night for me due to the haze..
..accompany baby to gamble too..
..u shld have really see those aunties gambling..
..they never feel tired..

..my night ended early due to a bad headache..
..think it is because of me not having enuff of sleep..
..baby tucked me in bed after forcing me to eat medicine..
..i fallen asleep soon after that..

..and when i woke up..
..i realised i have already arrived in Singapore..
..thus no more exploring and cam-whoring on sea..

..my trip was short yet sweet..
..i think we are going to the cruise again..
..since baby had applied for membership of the ship..
..anyone cares to join??..

..the next time i go..
..i will try the spa..
..i swear!!..


..守护著等奇迹的你..
Monday, February 16, 2009 at 2:11 PM


..movie time..

..wanna catch Andy Lau's new movie but it is fully packed..
..so i thought i will be able to watch Benjamin Buttons with Baby..
..but it is fully packed!!!..
..i was so disappointed..

..baby bought tickets for this movie..
.."Outlander"..
..i wasnt keen abt the movie though..
..i had so much movies that i wanna watch so much..
..yet i am stuck with one that i dun wan to watch..

..had dinner at HongKong Cafe..
..no pictures cause i didnt bring my cam out..
..i need to get them charged for the trip tml..

..i tot i wun get to see many ppl getting flowers on Valentine Day Eve..
..i was wrong..
..i see guys getting themselves prepared..
..buying really huge toys for their gals..

..i envy those girls whom boyfriends hold flowers on the streets..
..waiting for their arrival..
..i know my boyfriend wun do that for me..
..haiz..


..coming back to the show..
..it is about a soldier from another world - Kainan and a bloodthirsty creature known as the Moorwen..
..both the man and monster seek revenge for violence committed against them..
..Moorwen ravages the Viking world..
..killing everything in its path
..Kainan on the other hand..
..forms an unlikely alliance with the primitive but fierce warriors..
..Combining his advanced technology with ancient Iron Age weapons..
..the hero leads a desperate attempt to kill the monster..

..not a bad movie i think..
..at least i didnt fall asleep..
..at least there is a storyline for the movie..
..rated 3.5/5 salted popcorns..

..i am going overseas with baby tml..
..yes i am excited..


..守护著等奇迹的你..
Saturday, February 14, 2009 at 10:37 AM


..stole this from Jiayun's blog..
..ask her to upload the photos for me but she didn't..
..so i copy and save the photos from her blog..

..her graduation pic..
..took the photos at Serangoon Broadway..
..it seems that they have been doing for quite a number of years alr..
..they are very pro i mus say..
..the prices are steep but they provide real good service..

..photo shots are not as easy as i tot..
..not like when we cam-whored and all..
..they are very particular abt the way everything is..
..yes..everything is..
..frm the way u sit and stand..
..to the way u hold ur head..
..tiring!!..

..let me show you some of the photos they took for us..
..Jiayun didn't noe which to choose to magnify it..
..maybe u all can help in choosing??..

..dad's choice..stern right everyone..

..my and sis's choice..but baby looked away.. ..i like this too..at least everyone is looking to the camera....baby got a beautiful smile here..can they photo shop baby to another photo?..


..守护著等奇迹的你..
Friday, February 13, 2009 at 2:12 PM


..i am having hangover..
..yes..
..even till now..

..we only had 3 jugs of beer last night..
..and i puked like dunno wat ytd night..
..i dun understand..

..i used to be able to drink alot..
..and i wun have this super bad sick feeling the next day..
..why am i having it now??..

..my body is rejecting alcohol..
..i think i better quit drinking..
..and i mean..
..totally dun drink at all..

..will i be able to do it??..

..if i noe i will have this shitty feeling today..
..i will not drink any single drop ytd at all..
..i am feeling sick..
..arrRggrr..

..守护著等奇迹的你..
Thursday, February 12, 2009 at 6:16 PM


..baby bought a new helicoptor!!!..
..he didnt even wan to take his hands and eyes off the thing..

..did i tell you that he gave me my Vday present alr?..
..it wasn't really a surprise to me..
..i knew he is going to get me a necklace when we are having dinner..
..but i still like it very much..

..the necklace he bought for me..
..i am angry..
..he didnt even wanna help me with the food when we reach home..
..he didnt even bother to change first before playing it..
.."it" seems impt..

..i am jealous..

..守护著等奇迹的你..
Wednesday, February 11, 2009 at 6:51 PM


..i am going to the cruise!!!..
..yippee..
..it is already planned by baby and his friends..

..it is not those star cruise we are going though..
..are u a little disappointed??..
..well..i am not a little disappointed at all..

..i am excited!!..
..it is still the first Valentine i will be spending with him ya..

..it is a leisure and also a gambling ship..
..which means baby will be able to gamble too..
..i hope it does not mean less time for me..
..boOooOoo..


..i goggled the cruise online..
..look at the pictures and share my joy!!..

..the cruise i am gg..

..the reception that's gg to welcome me!!....the poolside....dining area....dinner buffet..my favourite!!....the bar counter we can drink till we drop....foot reflexology..baby's favourite....it is said that there are spas massage parlour and ktvs..
..no images were shown though..
..watever it is..
..i am looking forward for the trip..
..hope it does not differs from the pictures too much..
..i hope it will be a lovely Vday for me!..

..sis they all are not joining us..
..guess they are more interested in sentosa..
..it is camping and sun tanning time..
..wish i can join them too..
..maybe next time den..


..守护著等奇迹的你..
Tuesday, February 10, 2009 at 5:23 PM


..i am looking forward for the trip i am gg on Vday..
..tO where??..
..not so sure yet..
..everyone's thinking hard..

..if you are wondering who is everybody??..
..they are the ones that went kelong with me..
..such fun company shld not be left behind in Singapore..
..but dunno if they are free..

..should Vday be celebrate alone with ur BF/GF??..
..actually there are pros and cons whether to celebrate alone or in grps..
..i personally dun mind if it is in grp..
..as long the crowd is fun..

..anyone can give me any suggestions on where to go??..
..Batam..
..look at those beaches..spa's awaiting for me..

..Port Dickson..
..they have beautiful beaches too..but further away from batam..
..Cruises...
..not star cruises though.but they have facilities there too..
..Johor..
..shopping and more shopping..
..Malacca..
..eating and more eating..

..i dunno where to go..
..i think i wan my second trip overseas on Vday..
..will need to talk to them abt the plan..
..wish me luck..

..Guys..
..have u alr prepared to surprise ur girls on this special day??..
..i doubt my baby have any surprises for me??..

..did i say i wanna take out all my extensions??..
..it is only one month since i put them up..
..but i think..
..i will have an easier life with all my natural hair..
..so no blowing of hairs in the morning..
..yipPee!!..


..守护著等奇迹的你..
Monday, February 9, 2009 at 3:22 PM


..movie time..

..ytd had to pass some docs to Kelvin..
..since he was not free to come over to Malworth..
..wanna to drop by and have a jug..
..but my tummy was telling me not to drink..
..so we decided to go cine for movies..

..very long since you heard me catch a movie?..
..i think i didnt catch movies for like very long..
..though there is so many movies that i wanna watch..

..went over cine first to buy the tickets for..
.."Underworld : Rise of the Lycans"..
..baby said i watched the first esp with him over at his hse??..
..i cant remb at all..


..went to this cafe beside coffee club..
..i think the name is "Organic Cafe"..
..not as crowded as coffee club though..
..so we always have a quiet corner ourselves..

..the menu.. ..the decors outside the cafe.. ..i was feeling a little hungry when i reached there..
..didnt have dinner with baby earlier cause i am feeling bloated..
..guess i have itchy mouth when i see the food at Organic Cafe..
..ordered some food and drinks there..
..the drinks there was rather healthy i think..
..they have different types of tea or different needs..
..pictures tells them all..

..the teas we order..baby had the second glass after his smoothie.. ..us while waiting.. ..wrong order!!..the menu and server didnt say there is cheese in there..i did ask before ordering.. ..the Cajun chicken breast..the staff recommended..
..the movie is about Werewolves and Vampires..
..i wun say much over at my blog cause i feel it is worth watching..
..the graphics and fighting are awesome!!..
..i enjoyed the show alot..
..go catch it..
..rated 4/5 salted popcorns..

..守护著等奇迹的你..
Saturday, February 7, 2009 at 1:35 AM