..wind gushes into the car..
..someone once impt to me driving the car..
..there i am sitting beside, trying to be normal..
..i saw them in his car..
..laughing..
..she came down to look for him at my workplace..
..not drunk yet so sober..
..she looked at me and smile..
..something hit me hard i guess..
..my heart skip a beat..
..they went over to the big grass patch in front..
..took a seat down and have a chat..
..like i seen this scene before..
..i juz could not take my eyes off them..
..after my work..
..i went off..
..he was still having that chat with her..
..i didnt wanna disturb thus left in silent..
..but with my head turned off..
..both was gone in a minute..
..my heart sank..
..thoughts flowed thru my mind..
..my friend drove past,attempt to offer a ride..
..i went up without thinking..
..i saw his car..
..with her inside, still having their heartfelt talk..
..i cant help feeling lost and un-impt..
.."they are juz friends"..
..i tot to myself..
..he looked at me when we passed by his car..
..i cant describe that feeling i have at that pt..
..he looked cold toward me..
..am i losing him??..
..brother switched oN the light in my room..
..unwilling..
..i was awakened..
..thanks goodness..
..it is only a dream..
..and this dream cost my sleep..
..arRgh..
..i cant sleep again..
..am i feeling insecure..