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..yang's bday today..
..photos with stella..
..tml gg lunar..
..to finish that half btl cannon..
..very long since i got drunk..
..very long since i dunno wat is the feeling i have..
..i feel insecure..
..really..
..i do..
Sunday, July 20, 2008 at 6:11 AM
..someone once impt to me driving the car..
..there i am sitting beside, trying to be normal..
..i saw them in his car..
..she came down to look for him at my workplace..
..not drunk yet so sober..
..she looked at me and smile..
..something hit me hard i guess..
..my heart skip a beat..
..they went over to the big grass patch in front..
..took a seat down and have a chat..
..like i seen this scene before..
..after my work..
..i went off..
..he was still having that chat with her..
..i didnt wanna disturb thus left in silent..
..but with my head turned off..
..both was gone in a minute..
..my heart sank..
..thoughts flowed thru my mind..
..my friend drove past,attempt to offer a ride..
..i went up without thinking..
..i saw his car..
..with her inside, still having their heartfelt talk..
..i cant help feeling lost and un-impt..
.."they are juz friends"..
..i tot to myself..
..he looked at me when we passed by his car..
..i cant describe that feeling i have at that pt..
..he looked cold toward me..
..am i losing him??..
..brother switched oN the light in my room..
..unwilling..
..i was awakened..
..thanks goodness..
..it is only a dream..
..and this dream cost my sleep..
..am i feeling insecure..
Saturday, July 19, 2008 at 7:43 AM
..a gReaT daY i muZ saY..
..sHoppIng day..
..waKinG uP wiTh a smiLe defiNiteLy brIghTeN uP mY daY..
..weNt ovEr tO caUseWay pOint..
..boUghT mY coNtacT leNs,2 paIrs oF shoEs etc..
..mEeT tEnG fOr dInnEr..
..bEen sO lonG sinCe wE laSt mEt..
..aNd shE is gg fOr a buSinEss trIp fOr 2 monThs..
..wUn bEen sEeinG her foR the nXt two months..
..bUt shE proMised tO be back on mY bdAy..
..iT is sO gOod tO have jUs jiAyUn anD tEnG fOr dInnEr..
..wE caTcH uP anD hAvE fUn dUrInG anD afTer dInNer..
..loOkinG at tEnG's curious face..
..mAkes thE diNNeR so enjoYabLe..
..the fOod wE haD..
..uS dUrIng dInNeR..
..phOtOs tO shOw hOw faIr i aM..
..am i reaLLy faIr..
..weNt doWn le baR afTer dInnEr..
..gO looK for janE and brOughT jiayUn tO liStEn tO the baNd..
..was fUn bUt sAd..
..i really enjoy the chattiNg amoNg us 4 giRls..
..the thRee oF uS..
..jAnE's laSt day at le bar toDay..
..we madE heR sinG wiTh the bAnd..
..caNt heLp buT feeL loSt and sAd..
..i miSs thoSe daYs aT thE oLD le bAr..
..yUtInG,yVoNne,kEnNeTh anD noW janE..
..wiLL le baR cHanGe bacK tO waT iT is likE in thE pasT??..
..i reaLLy miSs thoSe fUn daYs..
..lEt's keep in tOucH whEreEver we gO..
..prOmise??..
..i love sittIng in tHe caR..
..wIth thE winDoW uNwInD..
..liStEninG tO thE songs thAt i nOe..
..wIth ppL sO speCiaL tO mE sInG aLonG..
..i loVed thE memoRieS evEryonE gAvE me..
..i loVed lOokIng baCk aT thoSe daYs..
..i aM grAtefuL..
Wednesday, July 16, 2008 at 6:23 AM
..bEen stAyiNg drUnk sInCe anDreW's bDaY..
..dUnnO whY sO maNy ppL celebraTing thEiR bdAy ya..
..aNd sInCe wHeN hAvE i nOt bEen seEinG 3 bDaY in a rOw..
..waS hOpiNg thAt sInCe iT iS a sUndaY..
..i wiLL bE abLe tO stay aT hoMe..
..sO sad tO saY..
..i waS caLLeD bAcK tO le bAr..
..reaSon..
..tO hAvE a fArEweLL pArTy fOr jAnE..
..wAs a niCe sImpLe dInnEr wIth jAnE aNd aNdrEw aT vIvO fIrsT..
..wE taLkeD aBt the oLd daYs oF le bAr..
..iT was sO fUn havIng evEryonE ard..
..cHriStmaS anD nEw yRs eVe aNd dAy..
..miSS thoSe daYs yA..
..weNt dOwN tO le bAr aRd 12.30am aFtEr gg baCk hOme tO chaNge..
..dIdNt waNna waiT tOo lonG fOr thE fuLL-tiMers tO fiNiSh wOrK..
..iN thE eNd..
..i stiLL weNt off fIrsT dUe tO thE ovErwheLminG crOwD aT le bAr..
..weNt fOr cOfFee wIth aNdRew..
..anD evEn wHeN wE fiNiSh oUr cofFee..
..thEy aRe nOt dOnE yEt!!!..
..thUs anDrEw droVe mE tO labrAdoR parK..
..phOtOs oF uS..
..hAvE a grEaT phoTo-tAkinG seSSioN thErE aNd iN thE caR..
..caNt reMb i wEnT thErE wItH wHo beFoRe yA..
..wIth thE niCe vIeW fRm the sHoRe..
..wE haD a hEaRtfeLt taLk tOo..
..aBt thE paSt,pResEnt anD fUtuRe..
..fiNaLLy..
..aT arD 2.45am..
..thEy fiNaLLy reAcHed lUnaR..
..i wEnT oVeR tO fInD thEm..
..jUsT tO fInD oUt thAt sOmE oF thEm weRe aLr tipSy..
..i jUs siMpLy caNt daNce wheN i am not drUnk..
..bUt nOt mAnY oF thEm caN drInk aNyMoRe..
..i mAkE mySeLf dRinK fasTeR sO i wiLL bE abLe tO jOin thEm fOr thE fUn..
..eVeN wHeN wE smOkE..
..i aSo plAyeD gaMeS wItH thEm tO maKe theM drInk..
..sOmEonE sTiLL oWn mE 15 gLs of mArteLL..
..beeN niCe tO havE so maNy ppL arD..
..aNd sInCe thEy caNt drInK anymore..
..wE decidEd tO takE phoToS anD haVe a breaK..
..thE boSseS oF le baR..
..mE anD maLcoM..
..dOn aNd mE..
..mE anD rAyMoNd.. 
..tHe "45 trans strEet" le baR staFFs..
..thE stafFs oF le baR..
..sinCe evEryOne is eNjOyInG sO muCh..
..oF couRsE therE aRe ppL whO get dRuNk..
..aNd sO hapPiE tO say thIs tIme..
..i hAvE tHe drUnkaRds' pHoTos!!!..
..lOoK aT aLL thE drUnKaRds.. 
..dIdNt gO hOmE aFtEr luNaR..
..diDnT get tO driNk eNuFf..
..bUt sInCe iT is aLr 5am in the moRniNG..
..i wEnT tO mY faVoUritE baLi hSe..
..i am sO gLaD tHaT i nOe a placE thAt opEn 24 hRs ya..
..my favouRite lEstOr at balI hse..hE's drUnk!!
..drUnK mE.. 
..i reaLiSed i reaLLy thInk anD taLk aloT wheN i am driNkinG..
..weNt hOmE at 10am in thE moRniNg..
..whO wiLL drInk tILL 10aM in the morNing..
..OMG!!!..
..anD i managed tO drInk a juG and a mUg of bEeR myseLf..
..thAnKs kUiwEi fOr aCcomPaNyinG aNd lisTeNinG tO me..
..anD here i am blogGinG afTer i reaCh hOmE..
..gOt tO gO sleEp le..
..neEd tO work at night ya..
Monday, July 14, 2008 at 11:30 AM
..spent alot oF time trying tO make hIm angry..
..but tOo bad..
..he is a littLe pissed oFf but i didnt get my scene on act..
..so sad..
..feelIng disappointed when i wake up toDay..
..was supPosed tO get his preseNts anD bdaY cake..
..i oveRsLept..
..oMg!!!..
..was sO angrY wiTh mySelF..
..gOt thE cake at ard 10.45pm..
..nOt e cake i had in minD of couRse..
..diDnt eveN havE lots of time to do anytHing ya..
..weNt down tO le bAr firsT..
..didnT want tO leT him nOe abT the cakE..
..guEss waT..
..hE wEnt rOunDinG wiTh raNdy aNd drove pasT le bAr..
..mY surprIse was gOne!!!..
..buT thanks thAt he is bLur enuFf noT to reaLisE e cAke i hAve witH me..
..toO buSy to loOk at mE anD seE if i aM angry bAhz..
..i sImplY ignOred hIm anD say i dUn wan tO seE hIm that daY..
..whEn iT is cloSe tO 12am..
..i caLLed uP kEnNi anD geT hiM to opEn thE bacK doOr foR me..
..didNt waN hIm tO sEe mE thErE wIth thE suRpriSe i hAve fOr hiM..
..sO i hid at The plAcE near thE wasHrooM witH jiAyUn anD jax..
..aT 12am shArP..
..wIth thE bDaY sOnG..
..i tUrNed uP wiTh thE bdAy cAke..
..u shLd taKe a lOok aT hiS fAce..
..hE loOk reaLLy suRpriSed..
..aNd i wAs sO embRaSSed tO tAKe thE caKe oUt with sO manY ppL outSide..
..hIm cUttIng hIs caKe..
..the phOtos of uS at 1819..
..iT is a drInk and gEt druNk sessIon agaiN..
..dUnnO whY i gOt a gLs of waTerfaLL tOo..
..bUt ovEraLL it iS a fUn anD niCe cAtChiNg uP seSsiOn..
..i hAd a gReaT tiMe toDay..
..sOrRy fOr trYinG tO mAke u aNgrY woRz..
..i nOe i uSed aLot oF haRsH wOrDs..
..hOpE u hAd enJoYed uRseLf tOo..
..hOpe u haVe a mEmOrabLe 34tH bDaY..
..bEsT wIshEs mY dEaR..
Friday, July 11, 2008 at 4:16 AM
..dunNo wheRe tO ceLebratE my birThday tiS yeaR..
..08/08/08..
..my poOr doGgiE had beEn baLd foR manY days..
..infeCted bY tiCks..
..he loOk sO diffeRent noW..
..hE eVen fEeL diffEreNt tO mE..
..like i have a new dog..
..sEemS likE hE hAs nO conFidEnce iN himSeLf..
..pOor thIng..
..i still heart him like i used tO..
..mY liTtLe baLL oF fUr...
..hE seEms sO hapPy..
..thE baLd hIm..
..baBy weaRing hIs cloTheS aNd mY nEcKLaCe..
..i caNt sLeep AGAIN....it iS coMinG tO 1pm le..
Tuesday, July 8, 2008 at 12:31 PM
..i started my day later den them..
..i was late..
..the meeting was @ 10.30am..
..i was only woken up by them at that time..
..i swear i didnt noe the timing to meet..
..me on the way to sentosa..
..we went to uNderwatEr wOrLd anD the dolphin lagoOn....didnt realise that underwatEr worLd is so small..
..can u imagine we finish expLoRing it in less den 30 miNs..
..the dolphin lagoOn was noT that fantastic tOo..
..didnT really get tO see thEm do anything..
..pics of underwater world and dolphin lagoOn..
..phOtos of oUr triP..
..we had our dinner at vivO city....korean bbq..
..forget the name of the resturant..
..the food is okiez..
..we had fun there..
..talking rubbish and joking ard..
..den the full-timers went to work..
..some of us slacked at vivO..
..shOpping and cOffee-ing..
..snapshots of them..
..they went ktv-ing ard 2 plus in the morning....i slacked at cine with them till 2am and i give up waiting..
..was toO tired to join them for the last event..
..wat a regret..
..Le bar's outing had always been fun..
..love to go out with them..
Monday, July 7, 2008 at 4:26 AM
..went out early tO meet jerRin to acC her dO her extension @ city plaza..
..after her extension and my long waited dinner..
..we headed for bugis..
..tat's where i spEnt lot of time on grOominG myself..
..we reached abt 7.30 @ night..
..i decided to cut my hair since i feel it is in a mess..
..regret abit on cutting the fringe ya..
..thanks jiAyun fOr waiting for me..
..the new look..
..i really look tired..
..after cutting my hair..
..of course i went and do my nails..
..the shop i often patronise didnt wanna do my business after 9..
..so i went to another shop..
..sry that i went so late..
..after i am done with my nails..
..it is alr 12 midnight le..
..i wanna do 3D nail arts!!..
..but since it is late..
..wat can i do..
..my half done geL nails.. 
..after everything..
..steamboat time..
..my favourite la zi ji @ xian de lai..
..fufiling supper..
..i feel contented..
Sunday, July 6, 2008 at 3:00 AM