..mAy alr..
..how times flies..
..been so long since i realise i haven been doing anything..

..he sms me that day..
..and told me he read my blog..
..my heart skip a beat..
..i dunno how to react..
..i tot i no longer bother..

..i have been thinking..
..how did i get past this few months..
..been busy working..
..been busy lying to myself..

..suddenly..
..i realised..
..this few months i have been alone..
..not in anyone's comfort or arms..
..i have been left alone..
..or shld i say i choose to be alone..

..alone to listen to others' problems and stuffs..
..alone to be stupid enuff to try to solve others' problems..
..alone to be able to listen to how i really feel..
..alone to realise all my capabilities..

..not even my god-sisters is with me..
..i only have jiayun and teng with me..
..though she is busy with her final year exams and work..
..with her final yrs projects and planning to get into a new job..
..with her tutions and solving of their own emotions problems..
..with so much things i didnt even manage to tell them..

..how can anyone get away by telling urself that u are busy with ur work..
..how can anyone get away by saying i didnt even want to bother..
..how can anyone get away by saying i didnt even wanna share..
..how can anyone get away by anything..
..when no one even bother to ask anything..

..it is true i wanna be alone..
..it is true i choose who i wanna talk to..
..but didnt anyone realise why is it so..

..maybe i am selfish..
..maybe i am hard-hearted..
..maybe till the end i noe nutting abt love..
..maybe it is still better to be alone..
..i wun need to bother and think too much..

..i am not that kind of girl who can only share happiness with u..
..i am not that kind of girl who can only share riches with u..
..i am able to share sorrows and hardships with anyone that i really love..
..i will be more than willing to change anything for the one i really love..
..but too bad i was not given enuff time and chance..

..i remb myself blaming heaven for giving me such fate..
..i remb myself blaming heaven for not letting me noe someone earlier..
..i remb myself blaming heaven for everything i encountered now..
..but now i thank heaven for everything i have now..

..i am able to see thru myself in other ppl..
..i am able to utd alot of things that happen ard me..
..i am able to appreciate alot of ppl and things ard me..
..i am able to see who really cares and who really dun..

..i am really thankful for this road i choose to walk down with..
..even if i am alone..