..been having a busy week..
..worked for monday to friday at le bar..
..really tiring..
..not to mention that last sunday when to dragonfly with everyone at le bar..
..fun but really tiring..

..been working at le bar for a long time i guess..
..alot of things changes..
..i am no longer like the past..
..and i dun wan to be like the past..

..being alone now is so peaceful and nice..
..no one nag at u by ur ears..
..no one telling u where to go and wat to do..
..no one even bothers u if u drink too much..
..best really..

..been talking to a friend i didnt catch up for a long time..
..maybe we was not really to face each other for quite some time bahz..
..now we can even sms to wee hours in the morning..
..as friends only..

..we talked abt times we have at 97..
..times we have fun shopping and all..
..everyone grow up i supposed..
..no one longed for those everyday drink drank and drunk situations le..
..jus sometimes meet for a gathering and drink bahz..

..i am really glad that we are at least talking to each other now..
..feel really bad to treat him not that well those times back..
..he is really someone that treat me really well though..
..perhaps we are not the fated ones bahz..

..found this in teNg's blog..
..I can't help thinking how right is this statement...
..I never stopped loving you the moment you hurt me..
..I just stopped trusting you..
..it really describes the feeling within me..

..though we no longer contact..
..though i no longer ask abt him anymore..
..though i dun feel so empty at le bar le..
..though i dun feel so hurt thinking abt him and our past anymore..
..i am still thankful that he acutally walked down the road with me for awhile..

..i see things i never thought i will..
..i realise that i can be fine being alone as long i have faith..
..i realise that i can be stronger than wat i used to be..
..i realise that being alone is not so frightened as i think..
..i realise that as long the ppl i need them to stand by me..
..i will feel more than contented..

..i realised that he made me grow up..
..and i thank him for that..

..i still heart him..