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..ya..
..bad news..
..think we really ended..
..haiz..

..i never knew i did put my heart in..
..i never knew he is so impt..
..i never knew tat the feeling is so strong..

..7.48 in the morning..
..wat am i doing without sleeping..
..i am confused..
..my mind is in a mess..

..the sms tat u send me..
..i am waiting for ur reply all the while..
..an answer i expected..
..but not an answer i wan..
..heartbroken..

..the status now..
..friends will be the best..
..i totally agree..
..but why i have this feeling..
..i dun wan to lose tat feeling i have for u..

..ppl come and go..
..feelings come and go..
..at least at this point i wan u to stay..
..at this point i need ur concern..

..u say u wun forget my care and concern..
..u say u wun forget my name..
..but..
..wat if u forget me..
..wat if someone gives u the care and concern..

..i admit..
..i am very confused..
..i am very indecisive..
..i am in a total mess..
..i am lost without u..

...i feel like crying..
..i really wanna cry out..
..i dun wan to be like before..
..i dun wan to spike u with others..

..wat can i do to make u come back..
..when i noe i cannot give u anything..
..when i juz cannot make up my mind to whether to wat to do..

..my handphone is spoil..
..cause there shld not be others i shld msg bahz..
..even my phone is angry with me..
..why i always handle things so easily..

..when will i be able to say things tat i wanna to say..
..didnt it occur to u tat i need u..
..didnt u feel tat i love u..
..maybe u didnt..
..maybe i didnt show enuff..

..need to prepare for work..
..thanks for the memories u given me..
..thanks for letting me noe how u feeel..

..u always have a place in my heart..
....

..守护著等奇迹的你..
Monday, October 29, 2007 at 7:37 AM

..today is my kor's ROM..
..well late as usual..
..i noe i shld not be late..
..sorry..

..drinking..
..having fun..
..lots of photo shooting..
..seems like all weddings are the same ya..

..suddenly feel like getting married to..
..hmmm..
..to who lehz...

..remb those promises i made..
..ya..
..if it really become the truth i aso dunno how to handle..
..but seeing others being blissful..
..i aso wanna a taste of it though..

..i wanna a child of my own..
..looking at xuan xuan..
..makes me really wan a child of my own..
..see kor kor they all chasing her ard..
..yet they are so happy..

..looking at the chalet..
..seeing everyone did their jobs..
..sKy kor bbq-ing..
..san kor they all helping..
..i wonder sometimes..
..wat did i do..
..all of them dote on me..
..but i did nutting for them..

..drunk again..
..a few cans of beer and a few glasses of XO..
..a lousy drinker i am..
..but i feel sad deep down..

..he never reply my smses..
..ya i know..
..if i am him i will be angry too..
..he only manage to reply a "nitez"..
..so hurtful..

..happy marriage to u..
..Sam kOr n ApPle..

..守护著等奇迹的你..
Sunday, October 28, 2007 at 1:37 AM

当世界不知不觉的变了

有时候我怀念以前的我

作的梦虽然远远的

想像是一种快乐

拥有了同时也失去什黱

而眷恋原来会带来软弱

你让我在雾里成熟心开始曲折

我不想舍得不想懂得

是谁惹谁言不由衷

说谎伤害都是不安犯的错

怕抱不紧什黱

我不想舍得不想懂得

谁说割爱才更深刻

彼此依赖是爱不是负荷

能握著手就是感动的

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..this is a nice song..
..i really think this song say out all my feelings..

..guess the story ended..
..i muz be out of my mind to tell him off ytd..
..ya..
..always is liquor tat makes me say everything..
....

..i feel bad and remorseful..

..守护著等奇迹的你..
Friday, October 26, 2007 at 12:41 AM

..i am super duper tired today..

..who to blame..(hmmz....me lorz...)

..i super hooked to 'faCebOok' now..

..today is my last day at office liaoz..

..think everything in my life need to be unpredictable de bahz..

..first day i come they suddenly change me to 3 days..

..den today i come suddenly tell me to go to turf city...

..feel like an unwanted ball..

..it is okiez..

..i am juz a little paranoid..

...though i only started working here on 2th Oct..

(counting the days)

..05 days in office..

..first few days i remb i went for lunch myself..

..hahaz..

..surprised horz..

..guess i grow up on that..

..i guess i actually do like the people in here..

..though some of them i only see but didnt talk to them..

..some i talk yet dunno who they are..

..okiez..

..i noe..i really aso gave up in remembering names..

..guess i will miss them..

..really..

..i sometimes amazed myself..

..no matter in thinkings or feelings..

..things i neber wan it to happen they will always happen..

..irony..

..things changes alot these few days..

..too fast bahz..

..maybe..

..think my life is in another drastic change..

..AGAIN..

....

..like jigsaw puzzles..

..juz tat mine is always changing..

..no matter in size..

..shape..

..image..

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..守护著等奇迹的你..
Tuesday, October 9, 2007 at 4:29 PM

..everything seems unfamiliar leh..

..the feeling seems lost..

..everything is juz weird..

..will things be wat it is as before..

..i really hope so..

..the sms u send me ytd is really meaningful..

..u made me stop to think..

..pondering..

...

..to treasure those beside..

..will u..

..守护著等奇迹的你..
Thursday, October 4, 2007 at 4:09 PM

..i tot we are talking fine these few days..

..i tot everything is so nice and sweet..

..something went wrong ytd..

..i am not hearing frm him today..

..boring at work..

..been playing facebook the whole day..

..quite fun really..

..better then friendster..

..i miss his lame jokes..

..i miss "his cannot let me win" conversations..

..i miss him..

..something is wrong..

..think is me..

..wire connect wrongly again..

..emo..

..boring..

..time to find job again..

..守护著等奇迹的你..
Wednesday, October 3, 2007 at 5:57 PM