..7th aug..
..12.52 am..
another 23 hrs is my birthday liaoz..
feeLing boring abt it...
dunno why..
well not everything is not smooth-running..
some beautiful things did happen though..
something tat makes me feel happy though..
...i shld not have...
...but who will noe...
i have been watching Bleach and Naruto past few days..
think i am really very hooked on all these anime ya..
dunno how u all feel..
but they always seems to have hidden meanings to me...
"if u fear defeat,
get stronger so u wun lose..
if u can't protect the ones u wan to protect ,
get stronger so u can protect them.."
seriously..
i have been thinking very hard..
i am not strong at all..
not even to say emotionally strong..
OR
i shld say i am emotionally very weak..
..arrgh..
i have always been making myself look strong..
making this surrounded guarding force ard me..
i am afraid of defeats and failures..
well who does not..
i dun even dare to face my own feelings tat i have long time hid away..
seeing Naruto..
makes me realise i have always been wasting my time..
not trying my best for everything...
even he started out with no one ard..
no one who like him...
but i am far more lucky..
i dun wan to waste my time anymore..
this time round i wan to do my best..
i only wan something tat i craved and achieve myself..
i will..