2.30am in the morning..
..OMG..
..why am i not asleep..
...penny of my thoughts...
why do things turn out to be like tat..
..slowly slowly..
this feeling is soon engulfing me..
..i dunno am i still fit for this game..
..have i fallen in love..
...or have i fallen out of love...
..BIG QUESTION MARK..
..dunno why i am feeling this way again..
..aRrgHz..
sometimes knowing too much does really hurt..
i really got to admit i am stubborn..
..am i wrong in tat..
..i shldnt have ask anything ytd..
though it is not the first time..
but this time round i am not confident at all..
..listen..not even a bit..
..i am at a tat junction again..
..why..
..at times i really do feel something foR him..
..at times he is sO sweet and niCe..
..sometimes he seems sO conCerned..
..yet sometimes i seems like nutting tO him..
..不能说的秘密..
..maybe tat is the thing tat sucks bahz..
i tot i will never encounter with this kind of things again..
i have enouGh of all liaoz..
..mOre than eNougH..
..everything is tOo much tO take bahz..
i realised i dun cry any more..
is it i am stronger..
is it i am able to control my feeling better..
or is it i can suppress my tears better..
i remb saying something before
"Crying is to relieve the pain in the heart.."
but now..
wat can i do to relieve the pain i have in my heart?
i feel neglected some way or another..
..dunno why..
..lonliness filling me up..
..my mind is full of things..
..things i dunno how to answer even to myself..
..i think i got serious depression..
am i destined to lead this complicated life..
..dunno..
..all i noe now is..
. .... .. .......
...if i can turn back the clock..