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30th June 2007

nearly half of yr 07 have passed...

a new july..

a new life..

a new start..

looking bacK of my life..

looking bacK of the past yR...

loOking bacK at everyoNe's lifes..

sOmEtHing tO be very suRe

eveRytHinGs chaNge..

noT only eveRythinG chaNges..

everyOne chaNges asO..

and of course..

i change too..

not a bit but a whole lot..

well whAt past iS past...

be it who is sayiNg wat behind me...

be it who is doing wat behind me..

i can never be bothered anymore...

cause unlike them..

i have a bright future ahead..

my thinkings and feelings are so different now...

remb those times we cried and have fun together at 97..

remb those days we chatted abt everythings..

i miss my sisters..

but i dun miss tat 'me' in the past..

i prefer the 'me' now..

though still confused and indecisive..

but everything seems clearer..

i no longer holds tat burden in me..

burdenS are things tat only u will give urself..

be it to protect urself os others..

the heaviest burdens are those emotional burdens..

no one will actually like to carry them ard..

but there are ppl ard everyone dat create them for others..

thus have themselves lost in their own created burdens too..

so be very careful towards ppl like tat wor..

as for the lucky me..

i am no longer in this situation anymore...

or at least i dun bother so much liaoz..

i juz wan to be happy and simple..

gotta go prepare for my steamboat dinNer and movies liaoz..

everyone take care though..

misS all of u..

cHoiCes aRe mAdE onLy fOr uRseLf..

tLL thE eNd thE coNseqUenCes w|LL onLy bE bEaRed bY u aLonE..

dUn bLaMe oThErs oN uR iLL faTe aNd l|fE..

aS u aRe tHE oNe tAt cReaTed the mOst oF t..

bLaMe uRseLf..

nOt oTheRs..

..守护著等奇迹的你..
Saturday, June 30, 2007 at 4:19 PM

i am finally done with my new blog..

yeahz!!

ths tmE round i do it myself though...

see i am rather smart if i wan to try..

hahaz..bLeAhz..

not a happy day today though..

sick..tired..

down with a blocked nose and cough..

with a painful sore throat..

arrghzZz..

jayun took her jap book back..

been tryng to learn how to say though..

wahahahaz..

shld anyone are here listening to how i speak tat..

i swear..

u all will be laughing till drop bahz..

beEn talking to myself this few days..

more than often...

bad oR good?

i dunno..

i am fghtng for my own freedOm tOday..

sad tO say why shld i?

am i toO soft-hearted or wat..

all i hope was not to quarrel with him..

not sayiNg tat i am lettng anyone to control my life...

did i change??

i have to admit tat i am not as short-tempered as before..

thanks to three of them..

aMy..

aLex..

xingwei..

u nOe when ppl ard u are

more demanding den u...

more forceful den u..

u have no choice..

but give in at times...

ya ya..

maybe now i am not as strong as before..

not as firm as before..

not as brave as before..

not the "me" as before...

oyaSumnasA eveRyoNe..

hoPe t wLL be a bEttEr daY foR eVeryOne tmL..

..守护著等奇迹的你..
Tuesday, June 19, 2007 at 3:14 AM

i miss those days at acoustic..

miss them so so much...

i am acutally feeling a little empty here...

there are fun days though..

even though some days are really very fuck up..

esp those days jie and kor were drunk..

lookiNg back on photos and all...

alot of things started at acoUstic..

be it relationships..

friendships..

i believe alot of ppl will agree with me though..

i miss the days when we hide ourselves in the toilet..

crying and cursing..

miss those days at the stairs..

standing guard after 3 in the morning with my soOn gE gE...

i miss all the tables..

each got so much stories to tell..

miss the bar...

something tat never i will forget..

miss those whom i am suppose to forget..

suppose to let go...

no matter how harsh jie can be...

how slack kor can be...

i always try so hard for everything there..

even before i am close to 'someone'..

but why am i not appreciated at all

why till the end they still have things to say.....

why till the very end jie u still think is tat 'someone' lehz...

why ????

i miss the company dinner...

miss the chinese new yr eve gathering..

miss our busiest days at acoustic...

i miss everyone..

but it is all meant to forgetteN..

i cannot be soft-hearted..

no one will feel pity for me..

i alr let go of everything there..

including

a secret i have..

well something to be left for memories...

pictures...hahaz...

will upload when i am free...

taKe care..

to thOsE i uSed tO sEe alwAys

bUt wiLL never see sO ofTen iN thE fUtUre

bYe..

mY loVe fOr acOuStc...

and..

..守护著等奇迹的你..
Tuesday, June 12, 2007 at 7:48 AM

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how weLL eVeRyOnE nOe mE leHz??
taKe tHe teSt aNd lEt mE nOe k...

5 days i left acoustic..
drinking all nitez..
missing those feelings at acoustic..

ytd was at qb with amy jie they all...
cant hold my liquor well this time round..
maybe cause of those past few days drinking..

emotions and all juz fill me up whenever i get a little high..
things i heard frm amy jie and 'her' is like crashing my whole world..
why is it always like tat..

i dunno wat i am in everyone's heart..
i dunno wat i am doing for the past one yr tat makes me changes so much..
i dunno why am i still hurt when i tot that feeling faded..
i dunno..

i somehow tell jie alot ytd..
i say too much i think..
i threw temper at her and tell her in the face tat i am very unhappy..
i am not someone tat u shld scold when u are drunk..
i am not someone tat is doing nutting in the pub...
i am not someone tat u shld take for granted for..

acoustic..
a place tat holds my tears and laughter..
a place which i noe so many ppl..
a place i grow up and prove my own capabilities..
a place tat i think i will never forget this lifetime..

i wan a change in everything..
i dun wan this life i am leading now..
i wan a start..
but
wat is the first step...

leaving acoustic..
but my problems are still the same..
so many of them..
i dunno which one to solve..

save me..
someone..pls

w|LL thErE bE sUnShInE aFtEr tHe rA|n..

..守护著等奇迹的你..
Thursday, June 7, 2007 at 7:36 PM