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..i have watched transformers 2 ytd..
..i think we are really lucky to get the tickets..
..the cinema is filled with all the transformers fans..

..it is a little bizarre to see almost all the theatres are showing the same movie at cine..
..and all the theatres are filled with ppl..
..even the most front seats are filled up..

..the movie is so exciting..
..the fast moving actions made u dun feel that the movie is long..
..did i mention it last like 2 1/2 hours..

..the visual effects are so good..
..think they did slow down the transformers transforming..
..it dun feel it as fast as the first movie..
..at least i can see how they transform..

..they added quite a number of jokes into the movies too..
..and they are really funny..
..i loved those parts as they really made my day..

..by the way..
..i really love bumble bee in the movie..
..he had a really cute way in expressing himself..

..go catch the movie really really soon..
..it is definitely worth it..

..rated 4/5 salted popcorn..

..守护著等奇迹的你..
Friday, June 26, 2009 at 1:21 PM


..feel like cutting my hair short again..
..the weather is so hot..
..unbearable..
..can't the weather be more cooling..

..i have been really busy for the past few weeks..
..be it work or personal..
..been doing masks and all..
..think i better start investing on my face..
..i dun wan to look old and hagged..


..been having this manjong virus from Jiayun and Aug..
..almost every week i will play manjong once with them..
..bleahz..
..but it is so fun to play with them..
..so much jokes and laughter..

..i am stuck in the office again on this sat afternoon..
..playing my resturant city..

..守护著等奇迹的你..
Saturday, May 23, 2009 at 12:17 PM



..i am totally addicted to this game in facebook..

..it makes me dun feel like blogging or even watch my anime..
..i feel like a kid trying my very best to reach the next level..
..i didnt have to do anything to play this..
..i juz have to let it run..
..and time to time feed my staffs with either food or water to gain energy..
..or i can let my staffs rest while i decorate my restaurant..

..it is a perfect game for lazy ppl like me..
..cheers to whoever makes this game work..

..守护著等奇迹的你..
Wednesday, May 20, 2009 at 1:45 PM


妥协 MV-蔡依林



你总爱编织谎言 我负责配合表演
所有改变 只为了进入你的世界
这情节重复了一百遍
才发现是你的心太野

你划定楚河汉界 我不能轻易犯规
所有时间 都是先给了你优先权
不自觉爱 到不敢冒险
成了你的傀儡 一年两年
才看见我有多狼狈

爱到妥协到头来还是无解
绑着你不让你飞
历史不断重演我好累

爱到妥协也无法将故事再重写
你已下最后通牒
我躲在我的世界

你划定楚河汉界 我不能轻易犯规
所有时间 都是先给了你优先权
不自觉爱 到不敢冒险
成了你的傀儡 一年两年
才看见我有多狼狈

爱到妥协到头来还是无解
绑着你不让你飞
历史不断重演我好累

爱到妥协也无法将故事再重写
你已下最后通牒
我躲在我的世界

你只是害怕一个人睡
我不想再为你掉泪
我了解 不会变 不再徘徊
开始自己的明天

爱到妥协到头来还是无解
绑着你不让你飞
历史不断重演我好累

爱到妥协也无法将故事再重写
你已下最后通牒
我躲在我的世界

..i totally heart this song..
..i think it speaks alot of truth in the song for girls..
..enjoy!!..

..守护著等奇迹的你..
Monday, May 18, 2009 at 2:51 PM


..i am lazy to blog..

..will update when my lazy bugs go off..

..守护著等奇迹的你..
Wednesday, May 13, 2009 at 4:49 PM


..jiayun posted this photo a few days ago..
..i think there are more prettier photos in the album..
..but i am lazy to really scan the photos den upload them to the com..
..thus..
..enjoy this only childhood photo of mine..

..me and jiayun when we are 3 or 4yrs old..
..baby didnt go taiwan as planned today..
..thus i guess my evil plans of meeting tons of ppl went into the drain..
..but..
..he will still be gg taiwan for work in the near future..

..jiayun was asking me to go batam for a short trip..
..i was like thrilled to hear this plan..
..i seriously think that i need a short break from work and all..
..spa and massage and shopping!!..
..not forgetting the water sports there..
..i am dreaming abt it alr..

..a couple of resorts we are looking at..
..but she was telling me that we might need to compare to get the best deals..
..so guys..
..if you have good resorts to recommend..
..tag me!!..

..i am still stuck at work now despite the fact that i came like 10.30am in the morning..
..baby says he will be late to pick me up late..
..which means i will stay in the office till late again..
..dunno this is which "n" times i am waiting for him..

..i am missing my mum's home-cooked food..
..therefore..
..i am gg home with an empty stomach to fully enjoy the food..
..baby will be joining me for dinner @ home today too..

..can the clock tick faster today??..

..守护著等奇迹的你..
Monday, April 27, 2009 at 6:45 PM


..i wan to be independent..
..i wan my own world to be revolve only with me..
..i wan to have the control of my time back..


..i am disappointed with the stuffs you do..
..i dun wan to be wat i am now..
..nor wat i plan to be after wat we talk abt..
..i feel sick trying my very best to be that girl you need..
..it all came out to nutting..

..if you need your freedom..
..i need mine too..
..if you wan your space..
..i wan mine too..
..if you wan be to trust you..
..pls learn to trust me first before anything..

..i walked out of the hse with you sitting in the living room..
..a little part of me wishes to wait for you and go work tgt..
..but i guess my logical side won the battle..
..i dun wan to be like you..
..pretend that nutting ever happen before..

..i simply hate it whenever all this happened..
..u can simply go to bed and sleep in soundly..
..i am not the one that create the problems..
..why am i the one who toss and turn in the bed..
..why am i the one who think the matter over and over..

..maybe i shld learn to be like u..
..maybe we will be happier that way..

..守护著等奇迹的你..
Saturday, April 25, 2009 at 10:21 AM


..i juz finished dinner with baby..
..he brought me to Changi since we didnt know where to dine..
..it was meant to be a surprise from him..

..here we are at..

..SAF yacht club..

..the name of cafe we are dining in.. ..decor of the cafe....baby's lamb chop.. ..my sambal sirloin steak.. ..me and baby.. ..i had a wonderful night..
..sitting by the beach and enjoying my drinks..
..i love this relaxing feeling..

..and i seriously fallen in love with that place..


..守护著等奇迹的你..
Wednesday, April 22, 2009 at 11:54 PM


..baby cut my hair ytd..
..he is supposed to trim them into a proper shape..
..but end up..
..he cut alot of my hair..
..below are the pictures to show the difference..

..are u able to notice the difference..

..it is a great difference in length..

..after cutting one side of the hair..
..he was not very confident in cutting the other side of the hair..
..he says: "i think it will look weird if i cut the other side the same way"..
..i was like "WAT!!"

..so i have no choice but to find a stylist to save my hair..
..the end result shown below..

..my trimmed hair.. ..dun question..
..my hair is short again..
..i didnt even noe why i will allow him to trim my hair in the first place..
..i actually asked him too..
..OMG..

..i muz be out of my mind..
..pls grow long fast okay..


..守护著等奇迹的你..
Sunday, April 19, 2009 at 1:33 PM


..office is finally done up..
..pictures that shows you parts of the office..

..my counter..
..mal's office..
..weelee's office..
..jeremy's office.. ..the office decor is not as cosy and classy as Soho..
..but..
..it is better than any other offices in Uni centre..
..didnt take the others' rooms in our cambridge office..
..lazy..

..the office feels like a exbit for the past two days..
..everyone keep walking in and out to see the office..
..even when it is not done up yet..

..happy working to me in CBS!..

..守护著等奇迹的你..
Tuesday, April 14, 2009 at 3:22 PM


..baby brought me to Pan Pacific Hotel to spend a beautifully night over there..
..the pictures shows the beautiful hotel..

..the hotel at night..

..the deluxe room shows online.. ..the hotel facilities.. ..the bed in our room.. ..the bathroom.. ..the super relaxing bathtub.. ..parts of the room..

..called up jiayun and aug..
..tot the four of us can spent a night there crapping..
..but they are busy playing manjong..
..seriously think they kana the virus of manjong..
..so leave only me and baby..

..it is kinda like wat we do at home though..
..watching non-stop tv..
..talking nonsense and craps every now and den..
..spending the whole time tgt..
..sweet..

..i love this feeling of togetherness..


..守护著等奇迹的你..
Saturday, April 11, 2009 at 2:20 PM


..we officially moved out of Soho @ central tml..
..kinda of sad to leave that place..
..i dunno how to describe this feeling though..

..wondering why i am still in the office..
..cause we are packing the stuffs over here at Malworth..
..we will be moving into Uni Centre tml..
..it is situtated at 1208 Upper Boon Keng Road..
..if anyone is along this area during lunch..
..do call me!!..


..look at the amt of boxes..that's only one side of the room.. ..i have been in Soho for 7 months plus..
..i really do enjoy having the office quiet and alone..
..it had this wonderful view over Helipad and sunset..
..i am so reluctant to leave this place though..

..but well..
..since we are gg to move into the school..
..it might be better for the sale staffs to close their sales..
..since the students can see the campus too..
..i hope the ppl there are friendly though..

..pics of the ones that is left in the office after 9pm.. ..wish me luck..
..i guess i dun have to work for a few days bahz..
..cause the office is under renovation..

..守护著等奇迹的你..
Thursday, April 2, 2009 at 8:24 PM


..updated photos of me..

..do i look serious??..

..close-up shot.. ..i love this pic of mine..

..my short hair grew longer..
..wahahahaha..
..hope it grow faster and longer..

..i am bored..


..守护著等奇迹的你..
Friday, March 27, 2009 at 2:59 PM


..i had pizza ytd..
..i have been craving so long for pizza..
..but baby didnt really was into pizza..
..thus i can never get to eat them..

..ppl might be wondering..
..it is true i dun eat cheese..
..thus i shld never like pizzas..
..but i can always eat the crispy crust of the pizza..

..meet teng for dinner after my roadshow at the JobDB..
..ya..i went to a roadshow again..
..poor teng always got to give in to wat i wanna eat..
..watever it is..
..thanks ya..

..our drinks..i cant remb their names.. ..my all time favourite.. ..our finished meal..i finished like 3/4 of the whole pizza..

..守护著等奇迹的你..
Saturday, March 21, 2009 at 3:35 PM


Your view on yourself:

You are intelligent, honest and sweet. You are friendly to everybody and don't like conflict. Because you're so cheerful and fun people are naturally attracted to you and like to talk to you.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:

You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?

Your views on education:

Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:

You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:

You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:

You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.

Who is your true self:

You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

..i got this from Jiayun's blog..
..the url is " http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx "..
..see for urself if it is accurate..


..守护著等奇迹的你..
Thursday, March 19, 2009 at 1:14 PM


..i feel tired..

..not sure if it is mentally or physically..
..i wanna an answer too..
..or is the answer already in my heart??..
..jus that i dun wan to face it..

..i dun wan to be giving things wholeheartedly and yet be with someone who only willing to give halfheartedly..
..instead of asking me to stay..
..the words i heard was "u are the one saying it..i didnt.."
..which means u too agreed to it..

..thanks for being there at times when i need u..
..but i think i have enuff alr..
..love is not there when begging is involved..

..pls..
..stay happy..

..守护著等奇迹的你..
Friday, March 13, 2009 at 5:43 PM


..i finally finished all my work..
..well..
..not till they have to send me their certs and transcripts for me to process their applications..

..but till then..
..all my works are done for now..
..yippee..

..baby treated me to good food ytd..
..guess he knew that i really need some good food to re-energize myself up again..
..went to bugis in search of food..
..and baby choose this..

..the menu of the shop.. ..the place had a cosy decor..
..their front door decor is made up of the steamed container which they use to steam buns..
..so creative i muz say..
..the lights were aso creatively created..
..i feel relaxed in there..

..the decor of the shop.. ..we ordered a couple of stuffs in there..
..wanna try their "tang bao"..
..but i was not really keen in eating buns..
..so till next time..

..baby drinking his tea.. ..i had their hot and spicy raman..
..taste ok just that it wasn't spicy enuff..
..and it tasted more sour to any other taste..
..baby's egg fried rice taste good though..
..the rest was ok too..
..maybe because i like hot pipping food..
..the chicken and tofu were cold dishes..

..dinner of the day.. ..our finished meal.. ..wat i wan to introduce is..
..their salted egg prawns..
..the taste was great..
..not very salted yet crunchy..
..i dunno how to describe the taste..
..so try it okiez..

..after dinner..
..we went walking ard bugis..
..bought my vitamin C alr..

..i seriously think i am falling sick soon..
..i need a break..

..守护著等奇迹的你..
Wednesday, March 11, 2009 at 6:42 PM


..finally..
..career fair 2009 is over!!!..


..this is my first roadshow..
..and i think it will be the last..
..cause it is toO tiring..
..i am practially standing for like 11 hours..
..there are two days that i am wearing heels..

..i am like doing nutting there..
..i didn't noe how to create small talks with the students..
..i didn't noe wat to say to make them feel interested so they will sign courses with me..
..i didnt even noe the backgrounds of the schools..
..i practially know nutting..

..thru the four days..
..other than standing around and opening receipts for students..
..i gradually know more abt the schools that we are marketing for..
..i am so glad that i am able to answer some of the students' and agents' qns without the help of some senior staffs..
..i managed to listen to some of them talking to the students..
..thus learn more abt selling and promoting the schools..
..i jus feel smarter..

..so out of the four day at suntec..
..other than knowledge of the schools..
..i got swollen feets and muscles ache..
..i didn't get to sleep well too..
..so it is so tiring yet challenging for me..

..my poor feet after the 4 days..notice..my nail colours went missing.. ..i managed to take some photos of our booth too..
..we won the best designer booth!!..
..yippee..

..our booth's look like that.. ..look at the amt of ppl.. ..after the roadshow.. ..but it was not the end of my tiring days..
..after the career fair..
..i have tons and tons of students to follow up..
..not to even say those that have joined us..
..i had to give extra attention to them..
..i only managed to finish my work at 12 midnight today..
..and i am not done yet..

..guess the upcoming week i will be very busy..

..i will update real soon..
..so stay tuned!!..

..守护著等奇迹的你..
Tuesday, March 10, 2009 at 12:58 AM


..Wild Wild Wet..

..it is a family day for us on Sunday..
..only that dad was not there with us..
..he was not feeling well..boO..

..August , Teng , Andrew and Desmond joined us for a fun day..

..we were late for the activites though..
..along ECP..
..dark clouds gathered and i feel really down..
..if it rains..
..we wun be able to play at all..

..dark clouds along ECP.. ..it is a long way from baby's hse to Wild Wild Wet..
..maybe it is my mood that makes me feel that..
..because it is raining along the way..
..i simply feel we wun get to play at all upon reaching..
..cause it is a thunderstorm..

..bOo..the rain came on us heavily.. ..luckily when we reach Pasir Ris..
..the rain stop and it is all sunny again..
..i only managed to take a few pictures..
..since i cant be carrying my camera when i am in the waters..

..it is finally sunny!!.. ..me in the car while waiting for baby.. ..Wild Wild Wet.. ..pictures of Wild Wild Wet.. ..it was rather fun in there..
..though it is a little small..
..but we managed to have a fun time there..
..den the rain came on us like 1 1/2 hours later..
..that stopped all the fun in the water..

..we were all starving after all the running and playing..
..so we decided to go for steamboat on this stormy weather..
..baby and Desmond drove all of us to Parkway..
..but so sad to say..
..i didn't manage to eat steamboat as it really had a super long queue..
..bOooOoOo..

..we had ba ku teh for dinner that day..
..that's the only place where there are lesser ppl..
..we had 8 ppl so it is rather difficult to find seats in a packed food court..
..dinner was ok..

..our dinner for the day.. ..sis wanna manjong that day thus all of us headed back to my hse..
..i was like so tired after the whole day..
..body ache all over..
..baby fought with me to play manjong..humph..

..manjong time.. ..i had a great and long day..

..守护著等奇迹的你..
Monday, March 2, 2009 at 4:01 PM


..humans are funny creatures..
..u might be asking why i am saying all this..

..i am hearing this particular song when i am blogging in the office..
..i wun say wat song it is here here..
..ppl that noe me well might be able to guess correctly..

..see..
..i am leading this rather normal life now..
..at least more normal then wat i use to have..
..i have someone whom at least will think of me in some things he do..
..though he can be a blockhead at times..
..i am really not ranting or complaining abt him here..


..but there are times when a particular song or scene that come along..
..i will tend to remb things or ppl in the past..
..be it good or bad..
..sometime i wish that i was not the one i am in the past..

..there are things i did in the past that is really foolish..
..there are stuffs that i give up without proper thinking..
..there are stuffs that i am too stubborn to change..
..i used to think "if i think is right, i can jus do it the way i wan"..

..maybe things will change..
..maybe ppl ard me wun be the same as now..
..maybe i can still manage to keep some from the past..
..maybe i wun learn this much as now..

..i dun wan to keep ranting abt "wat if i have done dat in the first place.."..
..i dun wan to ponder on the decisions i made a "million yrs ago"..
..i cant even remb why i made all that decisions..
..things might change..yes..
..but will i still be the me as now..
..maybe not..

..i might not be doing enuff for everyone..
..i might be still that princess i used to be in the past..
..i might be still not thinking str like i used too..
..but i believe..


..i grown out of wat i used to be..
..i am learning to love myself and ppl ard me..

..thanks to u..

..守护著等奇迹的你..
Tuesday, February 24, 2009 at 4:21 PM